But thus I went, and I found two schools I liked and ended up enjoying myself along the way. I even began to enjoy the long car rides. I got to clear my head, and get away from my normal day-to-day routine.
One of the schools I visited was Union University in Jackson, TN. And at the end of the tour they gave me two books. One of them was about the tornado that hit their campus two years ago and destroyed a good bit of it. The marvel of that event was that nobody was killed.
So on our last stretch from Oxford, MS to good ol' H-Town I began to read the book. It was called God in the Whirlwind. Each chapter was a different account of a student or faculty member's experience of the tornado. So many students escaped death by mere inches and seconds. And it was an eye opening experience to read.
I was reminded of who God was. Not of how marvelous He was for sparing the lives of the students and faculty at Union (but He IS to be praised for that) but of how God strengthens those who trust in Him at their weakest moments.
"But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weakness, in insults, in hardships, in persecution, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
I'm a complainer. And I've been throwing myself a pity-party for a while now. I've been acting like a six year old in my relationship with God. I'm frustrated God won't give me what I want. And I'm mad He won't make things easier for me.
And through the stories of the Union students who saw God work His best when they were at their weakest I was reminded of how God uses every situation for good.
Faith and trust in God has been something I've been lacking lately. Maybe that's why I'm just not to thrilled about this whole college process. Because for the first time my future is uncertain. And I have no certainty as to where I will be attending college. NONE. I have ideas, but nothing is decided. I was hoping I would walk on a college campus and just know that this is where I'm supposed to be. But I realized this past week that I am going to have to trust God. And that He will reveal His plans in His time, not mine.
I want to be in control of my future. I don't like uncertainty. But I know God, and I know He has plans for me beyond my wildest dream. I've just got to lay mine down first.
