I was reminded tonight to simply seek God. I keep trying to figure out me and my plans. And I've been making pro-con lists and weighing every nook and cranny of every option. I'm a very impatient person, and am often a little compulsive when it comes to decision making. So I often result to choosing the first option that comes to my mind, whether it be the right one or not. I don't care; I made a decision and I didn't have to think hard about it.

Tonight I was blessed by the presence of my ever patient friend who sat and listened to me ramble about college and life and such. I keep trying to analyze life analytically. Everything has become black or white, right or wrong, good or bad. But I'm looking at things in the wrong way. And I need to go to God. I need to seek Him in everything. Back in August the seniors in my youth group decided that our goal for this year was to simply seek God; to seek Him first and to seek Him in everything.

I don't know where He will take me next year and what the Lord has planned for me. Uncertainty scares me. But I need to rest in the Lord, and who He is. He is greater than all my fears.

"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:33-34